In all relationships there are things we need and things we want, here's my list of those things.
What I need is a partner who knows me and loves me and actually cares about how I am. A man who can't wait to talk to me in the morning even if we stayed up talking the whole night before. A man who loves the way my crazy, kinky little mind works and never wants to be closed off from it.
What I need is someone who understands that I LOVE being a strong independent woman, but even still, sometimes I need rescued. Sometimes I just need a place to cry. Sometimes I just need to know that even if I never accomplished any of my dreams, it wouldn't make me worthless.
What I need is a man who cares about my sexual pleasure. A man who doesn't...
mind that I'm shy or inexperienced. A man who isn't threatened by my insatiability or my kinkiness. A man who can take me at my most passionate, but can understand that sometimes I need to be led there. Sometimes I get nervous. Sometimes I even get scared. I want a man who can make me come, without making me feel like I'm too much of a bother. I want a man who makes me feel like he at least thinks I'm sexy. A man who likes the fact that I'm kinky and is willing to explore that with me many of my countless fantasies. Someone who can take me to the clubs, introduce me to the world I crave. A man who relishes the thought of choosing other men to fuck me and watches while they do. A man who wouldn't mind bringing another woman into our bed on occasion. A man who can handle my exhibitionism, but that can keep me safe in it.
What I need is a man who won't stop wanting sex the second he realizes he "has" me. What I need is to be able to continue to explore and discover everything that I am. What I need is a man who doesn't feel overwhelmed or insufficient by my need to surrender and submit to him. A man who takes it as an honor and a privileged and who's maybe even challenged by it.
What I need is a man who wants to travel with me, discover new things with me. I want to fuck in a sunflower meadow in Italy, in a Fountain in some small village outside Paris. I want to make love all night in an ancient bed and breakfast in Spain. I want to sail the Greek isles and have amazing passionate sex on deck in the middle of the ocean and I want to lay on a beach in Tahiti completely sated. I want to see great works of art and architecture. I want to see Monet's gardens and about a thousand others all around the world. I want someone to share all this with.
What I need is a man who'll listen to me ramble, and love my crazy and my passion. A man who'll sit through my nine million story ideas and maybe even understand what it is I do and good lord if I'm fortunate enough, he'll find it, at the very least, interesting. I need a man who I can learn from and share my heart with and maybe even teach him things.
What I need is a man who'll take me to Disney anytime I want to go and not roll his eyes or argue it's too hot or too crowded, instead, he'll find some quiet air conditioned spot and hold my hand, kiss me, enjoy the company.
All I need is a strong man who can comfort me when I'm broken and support me while I climb and protect me when I struggle. A man who lets me protect his heart and challenge his mind and light up his spirit and satisfy his soul. A man who'll share his dreams and his fears with me. A man who will allow me to be there for him when his road gets too rough. A man who is willing to take everything I have to give, and will give everything he has to offer in return.
I understand it's too much. I understand I probably won't find it. But I can't stop wanting it and I can't stop hoping.
